Today I noticed…


I came to realize that headphones have more than just the obvious positive uses in my life. Sometimes when you turn off the music without anyone  knowing, you get hit with the devastating truth. And I gotta tell you the hurtful words of a 2 faced friend make the “voices”seem like amateurs.

I have a hard time hating this person because he’s given me a safe place I can call home and has help push me in a different direction than the death trap I was headed down. Overall, I’d have say I’m thankful, (negative voices & all).  The question of manipulated exploitation lingers in the back of my mind still.

So, Friend? or Foe? Celibate? or Hoe? That is the question. Rhetorical mostly. Either way, I am confident God knows my heart and hears my thoughts before people, computers or even Rachel does. Will He make something out of a nothing like me?

Even when everyone else is laughing at me and I’m being paraded, He walks alongside. Claiming me as His. Now that I think about it, He’s probably the reason why anyone would be standing around watching in the first place. Where others may not see value, He does.

Live in the right now. My life was spared for some strange reason. I sometimes forget to live in the moment. Remembering that everything is a process. Taking risks, learning what I can through trial & err. I may be down right now. But when there wasn’t a hope in the world, I found God’s saving grace. Why? I don’t know. I’m excited to find out in this coming new year. Never losing sight of the fact,

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— Ephesians 2:8

How am I going to make this gift, this life count in the coming year? I’m going to give it some serious thought and get back to you with my resolutions & commitments I plan for 2017.

I’d love to hear yours…